Wow I didn't realize how long it has been since I posted. My blog got pushed to the wayside for a while because I have been insanely busy these past few months. It has been a very hectic time in my family. We found out that my Aunt had Stage Four colon cancer in November but the last few months were extremely rough as her condition worsened. We made numerous trips to South Carolina to see her and spend as much time with her as we could. Sadly she lost her fight on May 31st. It is so hard to watch someone struggle for so long and then succumb to this horrible disease. She was such a fighter. Her kidneys were shutting down and she held out for days because (I'm sure) something inside told her that her family was coming down to see her one last time. She got to pass knowing that her family was around her and that she was so loved. That gives my family peace.
With that being said I have to say this. Life happens. I've been stressing and striving for months to reach my first goal in my weight loss journey, All this is so small compared to the big picture. These past few weeks I have gotten to spend time with family that I normally see once or twice a year. That's what matters right there. I ate bad, I didn't go to the gym, and I drank way too much. Did I kick myself in the ass when I woke up the next day? Of course I did. I knew what I was doing was wrong but by god it was worth it. You have to live. This is a journey and along the way there will be bumps and twists and turns that throw you for a loop. You just have to get back on the right road and keep trucking. I went back to the gym today for the first time in a week. I did a spin class and it killed me. It felt good to sweat again. Now getting a good workout in is just a therapeutic to me as a glass of wine or a beer used to be. If I have a bad day at work I immediately want to sweat. Whether it be running in the park by myself or doing a class at the gym I want to get out as much frustration as I can.
I'm going to keep this short but hopefully I can begin to post more and get myself back on track with my accountability. I'm 10lbs away from my first major goal and then I will be in ONEDERLAND!!! I haven't been there for as long as I can remember. Maybe freshman year of high school?? If you are reading this I hope it motivated you to take a deep breath and realize you can get back on track. Set a small goal and get to it. When you reach that, set another. I'm down 30lbs total right now so 40 is my next goal. I started in February so as you can tell it is a process. You've got this!
